tah dah~

hehe helloo~

uh.. yeah .. im bak ^-^ no one probably visits my xanga anymore~~

so this is gonna be like my self diary ^-^

i was never going to come back to xanga again, but when i actually visited this

place, everything was gone~ the pictures, the awesome "andrew" thingy~

soo0o0o i just decided to keep this web page as my littl diary ^-^

so if anyone read this, great and thank you

if not, go on with your life ^-^

thats it for me folks~ peace ~

waddup ladies and gents~

this is yo main man andrew LeE~~ hehe =P

today.. was okie okie.. my past days..

were.. just.. bleh bleh.. and now.. im tryin to enjoy myself..

but i dont think its workin..

well im here to say what i want to become:

i wish.. that i was a "perfect" guy..

one who is always nice, caring..

always be happy just by seeing each other..

one who is cool, handsome, tall, not fat..

always make their one 'special' person happy..

thats my definition of a perfect man..

and i tried.. am im still trying to be one..

and yes.. it will take time..

but who knows? maybe.. ill become one

and bring back my happiest time of my life.. =D

that is i think what i want to become...

a perfect guy.. just for you..

have a safe trip.. im prayin ...

moo ...

man... saddest day ever...

i wish there was no today...

went down to see my homies in salinas... because i wouldnt know what todo..

went down, drank 7 shots of bacardi 151 (151 kills bleh~)

i feel like.. throwing up right now..

woah so hard to pretend that im fine in front of family...

on my way home, in the car, i looked way down on the road..

and had that feeling where i wanted to jump off the road..

seriously.. i was "this" close to doing it. i dunno why.

tah dah~

im bak?! lol

hehe probably everyone is going to think that my xanga is dead!

well.. obviously you all thought wronngggg =D

well.. it looks dead.. i dont have a chat box thing anymore.. no more pics of

boa, or pics that i would look and smile off of.

hehe i guess that person took it out =P i guess i really am disgusting to that person, huh.

well i apologize (did i spell that right? ^-^;;)

anyways.. i was gonna go to salinas today..  but stupid friggin jun had to go to santa cruz early. so yeah.. im just sitting down goin bleh.

well imma end here for now~ maybe, ill write another one today whoknows~

lol i think.. maybe .. 2% sure that someone will read this. hehe

latez.

hi everyone.. happy christmas eve.. wow..
never felt this crappy before.. many years i have had greatest memories in my heart...
but this year.. is meaningless... yeah thats right..
that person is probably out with the other dood that i hate..
the person dont think i kno.. but i do kno...
i guess its all my fault.. everything..
just little things that i have done.. little things that i never cared about..
i guess.. it was .. just.. a dream for me..
a big fat dream...

i am here.. sitting down.. cant think straight.. all the lights are turned off...
i feel the tear comming down from my eyes..
and a soft sobbin.. cryin out for help..
because cant eat.. cant sleep.. cant think at all...
tryin to heal my self but doesnt work..
nothin is happy to me anymore..
i will corrupt... go down...
yes.. i am being negative.. but im sure that all these are facts..
because im not thinkin.. im just typing..

christmas... meant so much to me.. this whole winterbreak meant so much to me... a day where i would always get up early in the morning and dress up as best as i can.. look at the window and just sing and sing...

thats what i still do.. get up early in the morning.. bike down.. and just look at the window and sing..

sing until the tears stop my voice....

at night.. i pray.. on my knees.. just give me a chance.. a hope.. something i can hold on and keep on going...
but i know nothin will go well with out ......

what am i writing... nothin.. so ppl that readin this.. is wastin their time...

i just wanna die...
just.. jump off somewhere so that i can just.. just.. relax.. be calm....